Sadness…u don't love me huh? You didn't love her. You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe she was good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life but you didn't love her. Because you don't destroy people you love.
"Unless it comes out of your soul like a rocket, unless being still would drive you to madness . unless the sun inside you is burning your gut, don't do it" -Charles Bukowski, “So You Want to be a Writer”.