You don't get it okay, it's not easy for me to explain. But I'm not trying to be lazy, it's just that I'm so tired and I have no motivation to succeed and I don't even know why this life is happening to me.
every spring and I'm getting real tied of being told to "get over it" because they all seem to think that I CHOSE to have PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety all at the same time caused by my entire life changing in one year.
I miss the girl that made everyone happy and didn't self-harm, wasn't suicidal. I miss the girl that had tons of friends. I miss the girl that didn't need cheering up because she was always happy. I miss the girl who used to be me.
I'm the ugly sister I'm the horrible daughter I'm not even the second choice I'm the "leftover" I'm not the clever one I'm not the skinny one I'm the talentless one I'm the "why are you even here?" I'm just not good enough