I am not me anymore. That is the simple and plain truth. I am no longer that Dutch student who lived a boring life in the south of Holland. I am an Element of Nature, result of a botched experiment. I am a reanimated corpse.
I never believed people when they said it hurt physically to have your heart broken . I now know what they mean, it hurts so bad, there's nothing that can make it feel better, and it feels like the end.
Pain/ Hurt ~ Depression~ Low Self Esteem ~ Feelings Of Being So Lonely ~ Feeling Lost ~ Doubting Everything You Ever Thought About Yourself ~ No Hope ~ Broken ~ Self Harm ~ Feeling No Self Worth ~ No Since Of Direction ~ Now You Hate Yourself ~ Suicide ~
Black and White life depressed depression sad lonely pain alone b&w fat dark crying self hate ugly dead anorexia anorexic unhappy sadness darkness useless worthless i hate myself self destruction lonliness disgusting I HATE MY LIFE unwanted no life im tir