Experienced this once. Found out the guy not only held onto his own parachute, but had caught someone else instead and hadn't said so because he "didn't want to hurt me." Glad I broke the bones rather than keep trusting an untrustworthy person.
Don't beat yourself up for not being able to realize who he really was from the beginning. At one time or another we all fall victim to an illusion. Stay true to who you are and what you truly want and things will fall into place.
April will be extremely hard this year. Last night I thought of you, like that's something new? To dream of you and picture loving on your sweet face. I hope you feel my love for you where ever you are. My sweet troy