Yes, yes I am. It happens when I get slapped in the face by a bitch who just lives to hurt me and rub it in my face. Yes it happens when I get lied to. And more than anything it happens because I want to believe and trust but I know better. So when I start believing just to find out I have been lied to. Yes I am mad and bitchy. Easy to forgive them, harder to forgive myself. Harder because I am just a fucking idiot, just a nickel bitch.