Better be slapped with the truth than kissed with a lie! And the truth is: the Novus Ordo Sect IS NOT THE CATHOLIC CHURCH! It's better to be outside than to be an accomplice of their heresies and misdeeds!
Take time to do what makes your soul happy.tapping into that part of you will nourish all other aspects of your life. Take the time. Revel in that time. And remember that time when not able to take that time ;D