Even though I'm surrounded by people I constantly feel alone. I have never been a first choice for anything, have never been chosen above someone else. There always seems to be someone just better than me. But I'm okay with that. I will just have a greater future with a smaller past. I have the opportunity to look forward to the day I can go find the people worth meeting. I will someday go find the people who make me feel important, and who actually want me in their life. Joy is in the future.