Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one will hear you and waiting for everyone to fall asleep so you can fall apart. For everyting to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.
It isn't fair when you know a simple thought from them could rearrange you. All that remains is the hope that somewhere along the way you discarded a stronger more vivacious version of yourself. A fragment to be called upon when you have nothing left.
The saddest part in life is saying Goodbye to someone you wish to spend your lifetime with. The saddest part in a life would be to spend a lifetime with someone who didn't really want to spend theirs with yours.