You are always responsible for how you act. It is very true my friends, you and only you are responsible for you actions. A wise man once said - we cannot control what happens to us - but we can control what to do about it,.
“I’m a big mess, and that’s the last thing you need right now, but this mess loves you endlessly.” and you were willing and able to handle this mess and marry her and for that I will love you endlessly!
Why do I miss someone I never really knew? I suppose I miss the warmth of his brown eyes or the way I felt when in his presence. I know I will never forget him. It is impossible to forget the feeling of wanting someone you can never have. My muse.