The first cut was not my deepest nor were many of the ones that followed. But even the shallow cuts produced pain-my objective. Yes, to stop the shrieking demons. But from one who was a hard case-it is not the answer to our pain. The cut is a liar. It doesn't silence the demons, it only pulls us deeper down into the hopelessness, the emptiness, deeper into the self-hate that rages in us. Look to those of us who have been there and emerged-we weep and we hope. we survive.